Barely Breathing

It was her last day with the company..last day with us. I thought the good times were over but for the very last time we decided to extend the good bye's by exercising our vocal chords!

Not that she's dying or something.. /Why did I even mention this../It's just that all of us have been very attached to her. She's been a friend, an ate, and a nurse to me when I got sick during our Team building in Pansol.

I just realized now that she was the only TL who made me say "Yes I will join in our team building.." I remember how bear hated me and how he cursed me because I always join with them may it be a simple breakfast buffet at H&E, a drinking session at Guilly's or an out of town trip to Pansol.

Bear hated me of how I give special attention /please don't get me wrong here!/ to the team..to her..

Well, going back, since all of us were in denial that we're happy and in the mood for some feel good songs we went to the nearest Karaoke place in the metro-- Top Grille in Jupiter.

The ambiance was ok, /Ok by definition masikip and mainit/ though we noticed that the receptionist were transexuals. Not that I mind, I don't. Didn't really care about the place. All I wanted was to "grab a bottle of bear for my throat.." /Yeah, who am I kidding!/

So we were all singing, each of us had our share of MAGWALA-KA-NA-PARANG-WALANG-BUKAS theme. Photo opportunity for one last time and not to mention the sisig plate that they served which tasted like a paste. Ahh awful! This is just my opinion! It really tasted like a paste! Good thing my guilty pleasure was present -- Ice cold San Mig light! /Damn! tagal din ako walang beer!!Puro work-work!! Sarap!/

The fun lasted for 3 hours, Louise and the rest of the guys were still singing Barely Breathing when the receptionist came in and said game over.. I felt a sudden pain inside like I can't find the air... Sadness. I wish things would have been different. Things happen for a reason..

By the way, after that Karaoke session, we now have suspicion that Oli is "IT" after doing his own version of Poker face . We don't need any confirmation from him but we would really appreciate if he confirms "it"!! LMAO

She

I still remember the very first time I laid eyes on you. I was in a hurry to get back to my station because I was almost on over lunch but my former TL blocked my way in to introduce me to you.. "She will be your new TL.." and I said "Hi nice to meet you new TL.."

At the time that she came in I was in a state of desperation for bigger challenges mainly because I was aiming for something higher but I was never given enough attention so to speak so hoping that things will be different in accordance to her perspective the way I saw it I approached her and expressed my plans.

That was the start of a great friendship for both of us. She took her precious time for me and guided me in making my dreams possible. Since then everything else fell into it's right place. I remember everything, the good ones and the band ones and the more complicated ones..

I'm not a stalker ok? I may have felt something beyond emotion but because you are someone special to me plus the fact that you are already involved to someone I did not want to destroy the friendship so I decided to live things the way they are. And I think I made the right decision. Though sometimes my mind wanders what if you were not married? What if you don't have a child? What if I tried to tell you? Would things be different today?

I certainly can't tell because I don't hold tomorrow but today has a big impact on my tomorrow. I'm definitely over that feelings and I don't want to go down that road. She's my TL and she has a child and she loves him that's it!

I am sorry for sometimes because i'm pre occupied with my work I failed to appreciate you when the situation calls for it. It has and was never my intention not to appreciate you. But I really do appreciate everything TL. And now that you have decided to leave us indefinetly eventhough it's sad because there will be no more Arlene Doplon that I can confide on my issues at work..there will be no more Arlene Doplon who brings out the best in each one of us. Damn it's really sad that is why I joined the Team Building for the very last time even though bear does not want me to. Because we all want to be with you for the last time..

Nevertheless, We respect your decision and we know it's for your child sake.
I will never forget October 19, 2009.

Thank you TL Arlene Doplon. Thank you for the great memories.

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